Tuesday, January 02, 2007

Close My Eyes

I want to write about something but I am not so sure what to write about. I could just describe what I did today, but to be honest, it wasn't a particularly interesting day. It's just as generic and the same as the last day and it's like someone is pressing repeat on iTunes.

You know, when you lay there in your bed and you think about things. Well, it's not healthy for you, but you probably know that already. I was thinking over my past relationship with Maye and the person that I've become now. Also, thinking about the future and what lies ahead of me.

That's why I felt down a bit yesterday, because, I am scared. Scared of getting nowhere and it is a possibility. Getting left behind is one of my fears right now, I want to get it right. I did something wrong to lose Maye, but I don't want to fail again. It's such a terrible feeling. Maybe I didn't do anything wrong, maybe it was just time? (You might agree with me here.)

Whatever it is, I learnt so much with being with Maye. I won't ever forget my time with her, because, in honest truth, it was the best time of my life. You woke up everyday, knowing that somebody loves and cares for you, she was here everytime I needed here. Relationships have always been positive for me.

You know, it's funny that you don't realise the lyrics of these sad love songs on the radio, but one that sticks out in my mind is song by Lemar, and it's called, "It's Not That Easy" and it's has the most beautiful lyrics I've ever read. Ever felt that a song was written for you, like it was made because of you? Well this is one of the songs, it reaches out to me so personally.

Music Video
Lyrics

I want to close my eyes and forget the world was here for just a minute to relax my mind.

Artist: Orson
Song: Already Over
Album: Bright Idea
Length: 3:52
Favourite Lyric
I hate the fact that I'm still in love with you girl

It's already over, we can't move forward

So let's move on
Bye-bye

Monday, January 01, 2007